Too many thoughts of her to count.
Your first glimpse of a future.
Fantasies of her around you.
A recurring actress in your dreams.
That faint feeling when she smiles at you.
Speechless when you lose days, weeks, months, years in her eyes.
Comfortability.
High hopes.
Moments of weakness.
The guts to say how you feel.
Tears and strife.
Pro and con lists.
Battles between your angel and demon.
More questions than you can count.
A stiff upper lip.
Conversations that turn to fights.
Fights that turn to an empty hole.
Late nights asking what if.
Late nights thinking of her.
Airplane trips that create more than distance.
No phone calls.
Text messages.
Weekly emails.
Bi-weekly emails.
Short visits.
Trips to the bar.
Jealousy.
Bitterness.
Other girls.
A bigger and bigger hole.
Last ditch efforts.
Drunken dials.
Her moving on.
Life continues.
But the days all melt together.
What do you get when you fall in love?
Heartbreak.
